Iritis and Possible Blindness

After seeing my doctor on Tuesday, what he told me psychologically sunk in yesterday.
I have little vision out of my right eye right now. Several years ago I got sand in my eyes while surfing. Then three weeks ago I was swimming trying to get in shape for surfing...as I went to California last week. I snapped my swim goggles into my right eye, causing extreme pain and inflammation.

My condition is the INTERNAL swelling of the eye called iritis. And it can lead to blindness.
My doctor initially told me that extreme exercise...or even just getting upset can lead to the inflamation.

Well spot on, the doctor told me on Tuesday that my blurred vision may be permanent. This upset me greatly. My doctor was being honest, but ironically he might have further sprurred on the condition.

Then I volunteered to try to salvage a website for the GLSA and was accused of having "agendas". So very simply, I am removing myself from the Great Lakes surfing community and will no longer run a bunch of forums so that people can argue...and ridiclule me. Why? It upsets me.

I reverted to extreme pain yesterday. I did not run I did not exercise. I spent the day popping pain pills and being upset that my website that I set up over 8 years ago is not appreciated by almost anybody.

My solution? I will remove any negativity from my life. I will not allow myself to get upset...and I will cut off all contact with anybody who could introduce hostilility, abuse and negativity into my life.

If I do anything else, I could end up losing my sight entirely. And if that happenbed, I wonder how much will I would have to live.